A Painful Glimpse Into My Writing Process.

     Chel White created a video describing his writing process. My writing process is surprisingly very similar to how White depicted his. At one point of his writing process White described himself as thinking of an idea to put into his piece and having to look for a pen and paper just to write down whatever it was that he was thinking so that he wouldn't forget it. When I need to write something (usually for school), I always keep the question/topic/idea of what I need to write in the back of my head for a while. I constantly try and think back to it, just in case I experience, see or think about something that I can relate to in my writing or simply write about. I like to do this because if I don't, I usually end up sitting in front of my computer screen or in front of my paper, with a crazy mind vacillating from idea to idea. If any ideas emerge in my head before I am writing the piece, I always take out my blackberry and begin to type it onto my phone. Sometimes it may be a sentence or two, while other times it may be paragraphs.

     Another similarity to White's writing process is how he described the initiation of his process. He stated the beginning of his process as him laying on the floor wondering to himself if he is dying. Obviously, I do not do this exactly, since I wrote this during class, nor do I do it while I am at home. However, I do have a similar feeling, although I don't wonder if I'm dying. I just panic a bit because I do not see myself as a writer. I fear that my writing will not come out as I want it to be, and I also am one of the most indecisive people I know. I tend to change my mind constantly, and when I start writing or typing my thoughts, I'll sometimes wish I wrote the opposition, especially when I must write of an agreement or disagreement to a specific question or statement. After rewriting my thoughts over a couple of times, I'll finally get into the flow of things and continue writing. Eventually I'll finish up what I am writing, and I read over my work several times to change, remove or add certain words and/or sentences, until I am pretty much satisfied with it. Voilà, I am an author, but not a writer.

You can view White's video here.